Thank God that I am allowed to heal myself

I have spent years searching for  physical and emotional healing.  I created many ties to negative energy webs from healers, guru's and shamens.  I began doing Energy Alignments, Dowsing in time and took journeys to Sedona and Native American holy places.  As a result, I was quite frankly, "possessed".  When I met His Holiness Buddha Maitreya, I had all this wounding from Gurus and the mis use of energy and graftings from clients I worked on, plus the Karma of going into realms that created fizzures and  fractures in our planetary web of sacred energy.  Hence, I have been in an intense personal healing criisis' for over five years.  I consider it my duty to clear up the mess I have made.  Soul Therapy is the only way for me and I consider it a tremendous gift  to righten my relationship to His Holiness Buddha Maitreya, and all souls.  What a blessing.  I cannot count the Soul Therapies I have done.  For my birthday I did twelve Soul Therapies during the week. I keep a steady pace of Soul Therapies  and it is grueling for me.  I am in continual healing crisis' and I thank god for that gift.  Thank god that I am allowed to heal myself and in the process let all the wounding I have created and taken on from old clients through stupidity be made right for planetary collective healing. Each time I go into Soul Therapy, I bow and say to His Holiness Buddha Maitreya, "Lord, I need a healing.  I don't know what it is, but, I ask that the healing go out and help others that need help.  I don't know anything except that it is an unequivocable and personal and planetary honor to receive the blessings of Christ, the true healer and have it available in this lifetime for the benefit of all beings.  Thank you Lord Maitreya.  I am amazed at your continuing compassion for all humanity.  I am truly humbled by your continual support of me in beneficient ways.  On one of my latest Soul Therapies I experienced a breakthrough in personal anger that I have held for years.  I woke up to the realization that a good portion of the anger is merely a cover for the intense anger I have had toward myself.  I was able to go deeper into that and have compassion for myself which is a breakthrough.  Very enlightening for me to see that and get a piece of it.  Love and gratitude.